Today is the one-year mark, the day family and I will commemorate our love for Bill and take time to remember his very unique and special life here on this earth. The past, present, and future all collide into our moments of memorialization - the memory of his life, the acceptance of our present circumstances, and hope for the future.
The very best years of my life were spent with Bill. He was delightedly childlike in his wonder for the world around him, yet wise in his love for the Lord, and he always, always made me feel special. I miss him and will always miss him. I am glad now that he is no longer ill, no longer trapped in a confining body of deteriorating cells and bones, that his spirit now knows true freedom in the presence of God. However, I am here, and the house is silent. I rejoice for him now, but I still grieve my loss, for how great is the loss of a best friend. I rely on the words of God that He is our first love, that He will never leave us nor forsake us, and that He has overcome this world. My hope for the future depends on this faith.
At Honeymoon Island we will release balloons in our symbolic gesture of love and comfort one another. Life can be terribly hard and yet wondrous if we choose our perspective carefully. God has set eternity in our hearts, and it gives me peace to know that we were created for more than what we see. While now the glass for us is murky, for Bill it is completely clear, and someday I too shall see His truth and purpose.
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