It can be exhausting having one's life in an ongoing state of unknown, at least for me it is. I try to constantly remember that my Creator is continually fashioning the work of my life and that he sees the big masterpiece, when all I can see with my tiny eyes consists of maybe a pixel or two on the mammoth sized monitor of life. While I might want God to brush in a little more red or blue, only He knows what really will work with the overall composition. So I've been trying to cope and to trust. Some days all I see is muddy brown and black, while other days I can see brilliant beautiful colors. Both are needed, highlights and shadow, dark and light, to create something beautiful.
Since I can't control the universe (ha, not this is not a new concept to me - I'm well aware of this fact) I decided to get a new haircut this week. My medium length hair is now SHORT! I don't think my hair has ever been this short before, and I love it. Now Bill would have a lot of psychological things to say about this new "do." I've never before gotten my hair cut for emotional reasons, and I know that's why I did it, but that doesn't make it wrong, right? In fact, it made me glad. I made a choice and followed through. If felt good to make a decision. Question: Long or short? Answer: Short. Done. If only all my other decisions were this simple! For now I'll settle on the hair cut while I do my prep work for bigger changes and decisions, all the while remembering to take one step at a time. At least with my new haircut I'll look good when I get to wherever it is that I'm going.
My dad did have a lot to say about hair and cutting hair. However, I know that he would be so proud of your growth this year that he might just say "it looks great!" and then when your big decision comes he might just say "great choice" :)
ReplyDeleteThere ya go! Baby steps. It's a good first move toward becoming "you" and not "y'all". I'm proud!
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